I need a lover that won't drive me crazy....

As I ponder what I want and where I wanted to go in my life, I consider how to get there. For two years or more, I have harbored a deep dark craving to leave the city - leaving California altogether. Though my heart holds me back, every other fiber of my being screams to go. I wonder why I spend so much time reading about doing what I want to do instead of DOING what I want to do. Just as many of us play video games of rock climbing instead of going out and actually rock climbing. Ok, the video analogy may be a little off - it's much safer to race a car and crash it on the screen than it would be real life, and much less expensive. But my point is still there: with our time on earth so short, why do humans settle for less than what's best? Why do we settle for less than is real, clean, true?